NaderChaser's Blog

So, I started smoking again back in March 2008.  I had quit for over 22 years.  Then met a cop, dated him, started smoking over all the stupidness of him, and gradually came right back up to smoking about a pack a day.  I started for all the wrong reasons, like there is a good reason.  Even my mom dying didnt get me to smoke again.  i think it was almost like a rebel thing of me to do.  I was recently separated from my soont o be X, had a new relationship that went sour, so why not just rebel and do something that I can do if I want to kind of thing.  So I did.  At first, I remember getting a head rush, that was cool.  Then I would buy a pack and keep it in my liquor cabinet for the next weekend out.  One pack sometimes would last me three weekends.  Then I met someone on Mem weekend that drank alot and we always were going out.  So then, he was like, Oh, I dont date smokers.  I am like, Oh, I am not a smoker.  But I was.  Gradually I smoked more and more.  Almost burned down my apartment complex last month being a careless smoker.  Even that didnt make me stop.  I love smoking.  It relaxes me.  I sit and think and smoke. I dont care how much they cost.  Does any smoker really care?  Like that would be the only reason for them to quit smoking?  Hell no.  Addicts dont care how much their addiction costs.  I do like it and I dont want to think about when I am old and on oxygen like my grandma.  I could die tomorrow walking across the street, so I dont think bout the future.  But I dont want to be a smoker.  I hate the smell, I hate the coughing, I hate what others smell on my breath. And if I become serious with a non smoker, then what?  So I said that the first time I get sick, I will quit.  That is how I quit the first time back 22 years ago when I was pregnant with my son.  It is easy to quit when you are sick.  So I am sick.  Yucky stuff, coughing, sneexing, runny nose, head cold.  So my last cig was last night bout 9pm.  Yeah I missed it this morning getting ready for work. I miss it sitting here at work.  I miss it alot. It is definately a head game to be played.  You really are addicted to the habit of smoking.  I miss it alot.  We will see how good I can do.   Do not judge me though, I am definately not perfect.

 

It is now 10:00 am.  I have not smoked since bout 9pm last night.  Went to buy a pack at the gift store cuz I wanted to go outside to smoke one just to see if it tasted good.  They didnt have my brand, so I didnt do it.  Would have cost me $6 also, but you know, I am an addict so that didnt even matter to me.

 

It is now 10:35.  I went out to smoke with a friend.  Her brand is a generic brand and it tasted real bad.  Wanted to see though if I really wanted it.  I went back inside and my hands stunk and my coat stunk.

Oh yeah...member those days?  I couldnt wait til winter break.  I at this time, had already found out what I was getting for Christmas and what was wrapped under the tree already.  I was a snooper.  I unwrapped all my gifts and carefully peaked.  Even wore a sweater that was wrapped up for me.  Of course, I immediately came home put it back into the same box using the same tape.  I was good at it too.  Even when I was married, I unwrapped a gift from my X and used it.  It was a big pan and I needed a big pan to cook rice krispie treats in.  So anyways, getting out of school for what seemed like an eternity was cool.  I slept in everyday, partied every night.  One time, my best friend Susan's mom was selling their house.  They had already moved out and it was vacant.  Clean and vacant.  So what a better place to have a rave party huh?  So, we broke into the sliding glass door (that was easy back then) and had us one hell of a party.  The carpet was a light cream color.  Big mistake.  We could only use the bathroom light cuz it was the only room that didnt have a window so the neighbors couldnt see us all in there.  There must have been close to 35 kids in there by the time the local word got out.  So the next day, here are all these foot prints leading directly around the house to the sliding glass door.  Busted.  We got into alot of trouble.  Her mom still yells at us for that one.  Cost her alot of money to clean our mess up.

I had a party once when my parents were out of town.  I was 18.  You would think I woukd know better than to have a keg party and charge admissions.  Someone shoved their fist up into our porch light fixture and broke it.  There was beer alll over the carpet.  Someone stole the keg faucet.  Someone put a hole onto the wall from the front door handle.  Someone stol the knobs off of the fricken stove.  I go to cook something the next day and there is nothing there to turn!  Oh, my parents really got mad at me.

Now I have kids of my own.  A 16 yr old who is just like me.  Oh my.  Wonder what hell she will put me through.

So, while I have been moving all my crap out of my old house, I come across my box full of all my records.  Havent seen this box in over 27 years!  Probably longer, well since like 1980!  I remember albums and how the covers were all the big deal.  Cool covers that you cannot even get close to with DVDs in plastic cases.  So one day at a garage sale, I bought all this guys albums, 45's and a turntable.  I went home so anxious to plug it into my surround sound system and kick back and listen to some old classic rock.  No go.  My receiver is digital and the turntable was analog. Bummer.  So anyways, I open up my original Peter Frampton double album cover and there are little seeds still in the crack.. Anyone remember why there would be little seeds in this crack of this particular double album cover?  I was laughing my butt off.  Then had to quickly clean it cuz daughter wanted to see all my albums.  She went thru them all asking all these questions like, are these originals? Ummm, yes, I am that old daughter. She is like, Cool, this one is so cool, so is this one.  So being now that she lives in an apartment and has boring white apartment walls in her bedroom that we cant paint, I suggested that she go thru the album covers and pick out the cool ones and we can go around to top of her walls like a border and sticky putty them up.  I will post a pic when we are all done. Oh btw, anyone ever heard of "Matt The Hoople".  I have three albums and dont know who these people are but look like early 70's.  Also, does anyone have a stereo rack system with speakers and a turntable that they dont want anymore?  I want to put it in her room for her to play these on.  Will bring back alot of memories and I know that I can prob download them jsut the same, but it isnt the same at all.  The scratches, the sound, remember when you put a penny on the needle so it would play better?  wow, how much fun did we have?  I also saw all my albums with my name writeen on the cover, cuz whenever we went to Mark Stevens house to party on the weekends, everyone would bring their favs to share. So if you live near the northland, or even if you dont, and you want to get rid of a system or sell for very very cheap (cuz I am a poor white single mom to a 16- year old, I want everything and I want you to buy it now, daughter).

Yes I am looking for some free firewood.  Anyone have any?  Would use my deck but I burned it down last week.

Ive learned that you dont think clearly during it.

Ive learned that all your valuables are not really valuable as your own life is.

Ive learned that one cat carrier sucks when you have 5 cats.

Ive learned that running up and down three flights of stars naked with only a small robe on, it is hard to keep it tied and if you accidently pee running up the stairs no one cares.

Ive learned never to stick your hand in a cat carrier to try to pull out a distressed cat.

Ive learned that you should not keep running around in a smoke filled room with your mouth open wide trying to breathe,

Ive learned that smoke gets into every little crack and stays in your house forever, and the smell is terrible.

I ve learned to check your smoke detectors cuz mine never went off.,

Ive learned to always know where you fire extinguiser is cuz I didnt,

Ive learned that we were all very very lucky that Scott had one in his work truck.

Ive learned that 911 operators for the most part suck.

Ive learned that my neighbors love n care bout me even tho they dont even know me, but they took two of my cats in their homes for me and I appreciate them very much,

Ive learned that even if you change into a pair of jeans you can still pee your pants again.  I guess I get too excited and i was very scared.

Ive learned to listen carefully to that little voice that was trying to tell me to grab the 2nd cat carrier out of my storage closet yesterday for some reason, and i didnt.

I learned that I didnt have renters insurance but I do today.

Ive learned that I am very grateful that Scott has been staying with me cuz Holly and I could never have put out the fire on our deck and gotten all our cats and ourselves out.

Ive learned that I will never yell at my daughter for staying up too late on a school night cuz had she not been awake, the fire would have consumed our building along with us and our cats.

Ive learned that this fire started by my careless cigarette smoking and I feel ashamed, selfish and stupid.

I learned that today is the great american smoke out and I am gonna do it, especially after what happened last night and how worse it could have been by my carelessness and selfishness.

Well, I happen to think delays and flight cancellations are a good thing for the KCI airport.  Traffic that is diverted, cancelled, delayed is good for my business at terminal B!  When people have nothing else to do, they walk by my kiosk and I can give them demos and my sales jump nearly 30%.  So, I am against KCI opening up two runways during Thanksgiving.  BUT I DO SYMPATHIZE WITH TRAVELERS THAT ARE STUCK

So where can I take old paint cans?  I lvie north of the river and most recycling places do not take them.

Does anyone know of a Boy Scout group selling shriner circus tickets?  North of the river please.  My son's group used to sell them for $1.00  I think this circus is alot better than the Ring-a-lin-a-dingbat circus, plus it benefits children!  Let me know and I can contact you and pick them up!

I left my husband a year ago.  He remained in the hosue we own-well we dont own it, but a mortgage and a 2nd mortgage.  He moved his brothers family in this past May to help fix up things, repair things, and hopefully sell it.  They all have been living in this house since May and have not once paid the mortgages.  About three weeks ago, I received acertified letter stating that the home will be foreclosed and sold on the court house stairs of the clay county courthouse-the next morning!  So, what I need to know is this:

I have not received any notification of who bought it. 

Will I be notified?

How much time will I have to get all my stuff still remaining in the house, out?

What legal ramifications will I be held responsible for since I have moved out a year ago?

If I file bankruptsy-which I eventually will in my name,  can this debt be included?

Yes, I am pissed that X did not follow thru with his plans to fix up and sell it as he told me he was going to do.

No I dont care a damn thing for the house as it should be condemned by the city since it is there fault thjat the city sewer backs up in our family room everytime it rains! No one will ever be able to live or want to live in this dump.

So, I really do not care whom I offend in writing this.  This pisses me off. So I am watching the news last night and they are interviewing a black woman who was the very last person in line to register to vote.  She had never voted before in her life.  All of a sudden this campaign she chooses to vote.  Why this one?  Well my guess is because she is going to support Osama. I mean Olama, I mean Obama.  So why does she feel it necessary to use her right to vote this time? Why didnt she vote last presidential election?  Does she even know all the other candidates in her local area that she will now just go thru the list and choose at random?  Is because Osamalamabama is black and that is the only basis she has to stand on for her count?  Whatever, I suppose if he loses, there will be riots and fires and looting OH MY!

Like I said, I dont care who I offend here, you already offend me by voting for a man just by the color of his skin, and yes that is the only reason she is voting for him!  So I will just say what we all think and know.

Do you speak english or what?


So, I go to Wendy's drive thru and order two number 5's (Ultimate Chicken Grill), he says what would you like to drink? I say then....Oh I wanted the sandwich only. Which is not the meal, but the sandwich. So then I get to the pick up and get the sandwiches, we go park to eat them and I open mine and......Ok, it was a sandwich only.  A bun and a peice of grilled chicken.  Not anything else but bread and chicken.  OMG.  Can you believe this? So I go back inside and tell the first girl(english) that I ordered The Ultimate Grill Sandwich only, not the meal, and show her.  She stares at me.  I am like, doesnt anything else come on this sandwich? She says yes, I will send it back.  Good, you just do that! So she gives it to another worker(mexican) and explains that I wanted everything on it. So then the second worker(mexican) walks over with two new sandwiches and gives them to me and looks at me and says, Hamburger? OMG, are you joking here? I said, ummmm NO, I want an Ultimate Chicken sandwich with everything that the menu says it has on it, is that it? Yes she says, then looks at her manager like she needed interpretation here....Ok, I am gonna make sure, so I open up the sandwich and it has almost everything except the honey mustard, which it says it is suppose to have on the drive thru that I went thru like 25 minutes ago! So then the manager comes over, I say to her, "I am getting real pissed here, can I pls have my untimate chicken grill with honey mustard and EVERYTHING? So I finally get the two Ultimate Grill Chicken sandwiches, but before I leave I annouce to whoever gives a crap that if we had english speaking workers working here, they might have been able to get it eight the first time! Ya think? Reminds me of the guy who ordered happy meals with ketchup and cheese only, and he gets home and his kids see their buns with cheese and ketchup only!

Someone pls tell me what the heck ROCK CHALK JAYHAWK means?

Well, I finally ventured to the Power & Light District downtown.  I have to say, I so enjoyed myself.  We paid for valet parking-$6.00 can't even touch that!

The place was packed, but even so, I was able to get down on the floor and dance my little butt off.  I loved the music they played! I was truly in my element! I am wondering though what are they going to do when it is like in the 100's in the summer?  It was already warm in there since it was all outside.  The bathrooms didn't have a long line which is good. We tried to get into a club-the bowling alley-which was weird in itself that a bowling alley would have a club, but I could hear the music and couldn't wait to get my groove on again.  One of the guys in our little possy had too baggy of shorts, so they wouldn't let him in.  Ok, I kinda agree.  The line at what seemed to be the only bar downstairs that you could get a mixed drink, was packed.  The drink cost $7, so only had one the whole night.  Mainly though because I was dancing and didn't care!  It was like one huge rave! I will definantely be going back again, as I am tired of the riff-raff up north of the river-and I live here! I would say to dress up abit, I was in jeans with holes but they still let me in, but I did kinda feel underdressed abit.

Finally, May is over! Whew, what a long BLEEP month May was.  I hate the whole month of May for my own personal reasons, and I aways look forward to JUNE!

June used to be when we always went on our family vacation.  I would start planning it in January.  It was for the most part, any place I wanted to see or visit, so then I would do all this research and present it to my family. I think the most funnest one was when we went to Colorado in August.  Man we went white water rafting, climbed mountains, shopped, saw dust devils(that was way cool), went to a drive in theater hotel, went to the dunes-never knew there were sand dunes in Colorado even an alligator farm.  Had a blast.

So, June is also the start of the summer.  I have my daughter now with my full time.  Her and her friends have alreay been swimming in our pools after hours, playing tennis, working out, just hanging out like good teens do.  I missed her while I had been gone. Thank God she does not drive yet, so I dont have to worry about that yet.  I want her to, but I have a phobia, since my mom died in her wreck.  She can walk to a job nearby where I live.

So I am happy tomorrow is June, I will have a June 1st party! Yeah! But not go downtown now because there is going to be a soberiety checkpoint there on Sat night-crap

Heres what I know.  Last night a flight from Dallas was I guess diverted here because of a bomb scare.  They were told to park the plane at the far end of the runway.  They instead pulled up to gate 35 and unloaded all the passengers.  Why? This does not make sense to me!!!! They should have unloaded all the passengers at the end of the runway, then picked them up.  Not pull up to the gate to potentially harm other people in the airport! Leave it to KC!